I am not Bill Foster, but I will admit there have been times I could certainly relate to him.
For those who do not know who Bill Foster is, he is a fictional character played by Michael Douglas in the movie Falling Down. In the movie, Bill was having a bad day (to put it mildly), and everyone who crossed his path that day came to reckoning to everything Bill perceived to be wrong with the world, and by projecting what he could not control – he snapped.
Do you ever feel like Bill? You ever think just one more thing, one more letdown, one more disappointment, failure, wrong look, or tone of voice, and you are going to unleash all the frozen rage that has been building up inside of you for years?
I remember when I was in a toxic unhealthy relationship, I kept making excuses for his bad behavior because his actions didn’t coincide with his word, promises, or my hope. I’ve always been a “glass half full” kind of person. While optimism can be a good thing, there is a line that can be crossed from reality into an unhealthy partnership with the enemy who seeks to kill, steal, and destroy you.
The Bible has something to say about this is in Proverbs 13:12:
“Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but when desire is fulfilled, it is a tree of life.”
I used to quote this verse as an explanation of why I was so disappointed, sad, angry, and depressed. Although there is truth to this, my mind believed a lie that any man, person, or position should ever be the object of my hope.
Man is a frail thing. Our mind can only believe to the extent it is healthy. An unhealthy mind will believe a person’s words even though their actions and life contradict what is coming out of their mouth. A person with a distorted view of themselves will foolishly accept a false apology instead of repentance. So when the inevitable happens, the relationship ends, the cycle is rekindled in another relationship, and ta-da… hope deferred again.
One of my favorite verses in the Bible is 1 John 4:18, “There is no fear in love, but perfect love cast out fear because fear has torment. He who fears is not made perfect in love.”
Dear Reader, perfect love comes only through God the Father. It is in His love that we are safe, secure, validated, and free. Surely, God loves us through others, but if you put your hope in any other but God, your heart will be sick.
No doubt the condition you find yourself in was probably rooted in you from childhood. You have been conditioned to accept the unacceptable and believe love must hurt. If you keep believing the lie and stuffing your emotions instead of taking it to Jesus, you will eventually be like Bill and snap. The rage that you have kept buried under heaps of disappointment will erupt and the overflow of wrath will consume you.
Allow me to paraphrase Proverbs 13:12… Placing your hope in man will make your heart sick, but when your desire and trust are in Jesus, you will find shade, shelter, refuge, and refreshing in the tree of life, because hope in Him never disappoints.
Where are you now? What is the barometer of your emotional, mental, physical, and spiritual health? Do you feel stuck in the swamp of bitter disappointment, hopelessness, anger, regret, depression, and confusion? Are you ready to step off the merry-go-round of dysfunction? There is hope!
James 4:8 says to draw near to God, and He will draw near to you. Psalm 34:18 says the Lord is close to the brokenhearted.
Only you can decide to move forward to be healthy and become all God has created you to be.
There is a saying, “Those who think they can, and those who think they can’t, are both right.”
You can, but only with Jesus. Everything else is a temporary substitute that will never wholly satisfy the God-given desire of being fully known and still fully loved.
“Blessed are they that mourn, for they shall be comforted.” -Matthew 5:4
Let your frozen rage melt under the powerful love of God. Experience and know His comfort and be restored, changed, and live life to the fullest.
Let your hope be realized!
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